Except to say, that i think the best thing that you could do

would be to try to live your life as if Emma was still here.

Dont you?

I dont know if I can.

Of course you can.

What do you think I've been doing for the past 10 years

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and I cried

like a baby

because I wish I can too

I miss him

i fucking miss him

God knows how much it hurts

to live a live as if he was still here

when he is not

People said this will pass

but it doesnt fell that way

it feels like im just blocking him from my thought

and when it hits

it just fucking hurts

You will never know the pain of losing one that you love

when you are still in love

and i really hope that no one will endure this

I miss you, darling

and God

please give me strength